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*sigh* There's nothing like looking forward to the biggest and most tastiest meal of the year and then when you arrive you are bombarded about how much weight you need to lose. *sigh*

I'm watching Marilyn Monroe in Some Like it Hot. She's so lovely and curvaceous. I bet she didn't have her family telling her how much weight she needed to lose. She jiggled like jelly on springs. I too jiggle like jelly on springs and I like it!

So now I will stuff my face with some turkey, mashed potatoes, olives and stuffing. Then I will feel guiltless as I eat two pieces of pumpkin pie, yes, two pieces. As Charles Barkley said, you can't start a diet in the middle of the week, that just don't make sense. :)

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!

Current Mood: determined

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So my Drill Seargent Mandi wakes me up after a night of watching pimps, prostitutes and Johns outside my window.  I called the cops, but they didn't show.  So now I must take matters into my own hands.  *evil grin*
 
Anyhow, back to the A.M....
 
So I get up, reluctantly.  I pop in the Belly Dance - Hip Hop Hip Drop DVD.  I've never done it before and figure it shouldn't be too bad.   I start out okay, doing hip drops and side to side walking and popping my chest.  Then it comes time for some coordination and adding some movements together in sequence.  This, my friend, did not go so well.  I looked like a Hippo running an obstacle course, yet surprisingly, with no obstacles.  I almost fell over a few times.  My hip drop started to look more like a hip popped out of the socket and the popping of my chest is just another scene from Aliens.  My side to side stepping with a hip drop becomes a side to side stumble with a drop to the floor.  It was a disaster, so after 12 minutes of feeling like an uncoordinated oaf, I decided to try strip teasing instead.
 
Out comes the Hip Pop Crap Drop DVD and in goes the Carmen Electra - Fit to Strip DVD.  I have done this one before and I remembered it was hard, but I could still do it.  So I start off doing just fine following along.  I actually get mad when the instructor and I are still doing the move and Ms. Electra stalls by asking stupid questions instead of doing the exercise.  But 15 minutes in to it, I'm still doing fine and the workout is burning my arms and thighs.  Carmen complains about this as well, but the b*tch still takes too many breaks while I'm still going strong.  By the end I'm happy to see that the instructor, Carmen and myself are all dripping sweat.  This is a mighty fine workout. 
 
Best part, Carmen does a strip tease at the end of the workout.  Woohoo!

Current Location: work

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 Oh.  Mine didn't work.  Does that mean I don't have a family?  :^(

Current Mood: sad

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I've stalled.  The whole weight loss thing sucks in its own way.  The positives totally outweigh the negatives, but how do I convince myself of that.?  I'm about to turn 29.  I don't necessarily care that my 20's decade is almost over, but I want to say that I truly used my time wisely.  I want to know that my 20's was spent being young, foolish and just having fun.  But I'm too self-conscious sometimes to really have fun.  My weight inhibits the fun factor.  So how does this life change?  How do I steer the car into the turn so I don't spin out of control?  I don't really know still.  But I'm trying.  

Current Location: work

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I'm ready to come home.  I don't feel like I saw enough of Portland though, but I'm ready to be home.  I'll miss my neice and nephew.  My niece is very bright and artistic.  She has her nose in a book whenever she can and absolutely loves dragons.  A girl after my own heart.  My nephew hasn't caught up to her yet but I see he has potential in the arts too.  He has pretty good dexterity for a 5 year old.  Maybe that's too much video games.

My sister is, well, ... my sister.  Not much has changed.  But it's been dealable.  For the most part it was worth coming out.  I got to know my niece and nephew better, I saw real snow capped mountains, tall forests, tall waterfalls and a variety of Portland culture.  I only spent 4 of my 10 days out and about with family.  The kids either couldn't stay out long or take long trips or Tom (my brother-in-law) couldn't stay out because he had to work.  So we rushed from sight to sight when we could go out.  :o(  My sister runs a home daycare during the week, so I got stuck babysitting lots of kids.  Don't ask.  *sigh*  I got a whole book read in 4 days though which is rare for me.  So now I have started my real Terry Pratchett kick by reading The Color of Magic.  Yeah!

Anyhow, I come home on Monday.  My head will be releived as I am tired of listening to my sister's yelling.  Yikes!

Miss you all!

Current Mood: indescribable

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I guess I am more sensitive than others because I have always been of the larger and fluffier nature.  And even if I lose weight, I will never lose the sensitivity and pain I feel.  

I just think if this guy thought he was so mature, he should have thought about others in a more sensitive manner. 

Current Location: Home Sweet Home

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I have a date.  Well, it's not set up yet, but I will have a date.  I'm kinda scared.  I'm nervous.  What do I do?  The guy was really really cute and I thought he was totally out of my league.  Is it wrong to say it's like "Beauty and the Beast"?  I'm of course the Beast and he's the Beauty.  I don't get it.  I don't know if I'm ready.  I still have a safety net under me and I'm not sure that I want it taken away yet.  It was sort of apropos that I discussed this at my psychologist meeting this week.  I'm still hung up on my ex-boyfriend, who most of you know as Denni.  My psychologist thinks it is mostly because it's an excuse for me not to get hurt again.  If I use my relationship with him, which was just as manipulative as the relationship with my mother, to say I don't want to give anything a try again then my heart can't get broken.  Very true I think.  I don't think it is actually Denni himself, but what he represented.  He represents the unresolved emotions and feelings and mental abuse I took from my mother.  Denni did a lot of the same things by giving me mixed messages, manipulating, lieing and being needy and dependent.  *sigh*

So am I ready?  Can I do this?  I'm nervously excited.  One step at a time I guess.

Current Location: Home Sweet Home

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